I Love It!

Friday's 5 pm release of the new iPad 2 left me somewhat disappointed and leaving me thinking that I would have to wait some time before I could get my hands on one. News reports of stores having line-ups of a thousand people convinced me that I would be saving my money until the stores would restock on this valuable treasure. I decided that Friday was out of the question.

Saturday morning came, and I stumbled out of bed earlier than expected. For what reason? This I am not sure. Perhaps fate had a plan that I was not prevy to at that early hour. After getting dressed and eating breakfast, I decided to head to the mall even though the Apple store was not open yet. Perhaps a quick peek to see how long the line-up was, couldn't hurt. Right?

The line-up was short, maybe 15-20 people and the doors to the Apple store were already open. One by one, customers were escorted into the store to make their purchase. This was my chance as I had no where else to be this early on a Saturday. In total, I waited an hour from the moment I stepped into that line until I was walking out of the Apple store with my new purchase in hand.

As a test, I felt I should type this blog on my new iPad. Considering the keypad is a little difficult to get used to, I think I did pretty good (even if the space was giving me a little trouble).

To all those waiting for theirs to arrive in their hands, it's well worth the wait!

- b

Lagrima

Recently, I was going through some old books and stumbled across my futile attempts at poetry (or writing). Perhaps from time to time, I'll share a piece on this blog. Bear with me as I was no famous poet (and I'm sure these pieces will attest to that).

Lagrima (Italian for teardrop)

~ written in April 1998 ~

sometimes I'll just sit there and think
I'll think about the world and how it works
and I'll think about all the different people
and all the different languages and cultures

then I'll start to think how I'm just one person
one person in this large place
a large place with no borders or limits
and here I am all by myself, standing alone

but then I think about life
and how real it is
like if I just held my breath, I'd wake up
wake up from a dream
or everything would just disappear
disappear into nothing, where nothing exists
then I realize that I'm thinking too much
and that my life isn't a dream
so I continue to sit there thinking
thinking about everything
but then I try to stop thinking again
which makes the thoughts race through my mind faster
I try to keep myself busy, so I turn on the television
but the thoughts engulf me
I turn off the television and sit all by myself
and I start to think about how alone I am
my eyes begin to water,
and a tear rolls down my cheek

Rambling Thoughts

Although it seems like another lazy Saturday, what I really should be doing is laundry, vacuuming, dusting and cleaning throughout the apartment. It's 1 pm and I haven't lifted a finger yet. Well, not entirely true. I've lifted that one finger to read the news on the internet, read some of the blogs I follow and pour myself a comforting bowl of Fruit Loops.

It always amazes me how my mind tends to create this gigantic list of things it wants to accomplish when the weekend approaches and yet, when Friday comes, there is this vision of a crumpled up sheet of binder paper laying next to the wastebasket, symbolizing my lack of devotion to said list.

I'd like to blame anything but myself for this laziness. The true reason always seems to come back to one thought - Mother Nature is a bitch. I hate winter! And even worse, I hate when it looks like winter is over but then she has no problem dumping another 12 inches of snow at your doorstep. Oh the horror!

I'm looking forward to Spring. Getting back outside to do whatever it is I used to do when I felt alive with the sun shining down on me. I'm sure that sounded like some song lyric from years gone by but it's true. I enjoy the natural heat from the sun, the bright colours of nature (when it doesn't look dead) and the ability to go anywhere without having to dress with 47.2 layers of clothing. Knowing that I want to go outside and enjoy the warm weather allows me to be more productive with apartment cleaning. The faster I get it cleaned, the sooner I'm outside LIVING!!!!

But, the true realization of this day is - I'm about to turn 33 and I still like eating Fruit Loops!

Where Have You Been?

So it seems a long time since I picked up my pen and started writing my blog. No, wait - picked up my laptop and typed a message. Yes, I fear it's been a long time and I wish there were truckloads of reasons why; too busy with different adventures, school got in the way, my love life is getting intense. Weird how none of these excuses are true, although I wish at least one was. I seem to have hit a writers block and stopped sharing my thoughts, opinions and mindless rants on life in general.

Why would this happen? What has changed in my life over the past three months?

Life - that is the thing that seems to have blocked my mind from experiencing reality.

Over the past two months, I've started a new year with mixed emotions. Sadness over an ended relationship and happiness with going into a very challenging work project. Being two months into 2011, I've realized that I need to change some things in my life.

1. I need to experience positivity more often.
2. I need to strengthen friendships.
3. I need to accept who I am.
4. By accepting who I am, I will find someone to share my life with.
5. Happiness is around, it's not difficult to find - no matter what you think.

I guess this is reason enough to come back to my blog and spend more time sharing my thoughts. Hopefully you'll forgive my lack of devotion to this blog, but will try harder in the near future.